Oh hi guys! I'm sorry about forgetting about all of my DA buddiehs. D8

Omfg I know I've probably said this over 9,000 times, but I'm REALLY sorry for not being active on DA or posting arts.

I'm focusing more on music more since I'm a musician and I'm 110% sure I want to major in music in college. I also need to practice a lot more since I have this audition for seating and I'm trying to see if I'm able to get 1st chair again. I most importantly want to prove Mr.Miller that I CAN play at a wind symphony level. I got a 44/50 on my audition and I think there were girls that made wind symphony and got lower scores. They are upperclassmen and their 4 "real" auditions outweigh my only "real audition." Or maybe Mr.Miller had higher expectations for me since I sucked on the sighreading, and that he probably expected me to have vibrato.

I'm also considering going to University of Illinois Urbana Champaign. Craaaaaaaap. I actually have to do REALLY amazing in school now. I really intend to go to their music school, but I have to make sure I can get into the actual univeristy 1st!! Now I have to get the top 10% of my class.............a-and I'm thinking of taking....ap classes. I really want to do good in those classes and hopefully get a higher GPA. I'm also thinking of taking ACT prep classes hoping I'll get a 30+ on the ACT.

Otherwise life has been ok for me. I kinda got a social life and hopefully my social life will expand. But things at home are REALLY BAD. Our VERY old house is dying as we speak, and my parents refuse to move. I actually WANT to move since I hate my neighborhood. I hate most of the people *coughcheerleaderslutscough* and there's dead animals everywhere. -___- And my parents are just.....I can't even descirbe my parents. I'm NOT a genius that takes all ap/honors class and gets A+'s in regular classes. I DON'T want to be a doctor, lawyer, or teacher. I MAKE MISTAKES ALL THE TIME. Even if I make 1 little mistake, they fucking scream at me. -____- And my dad is a total bitch. Ugh. I can't wait to go to college.

This is why I love friends. Cuz my parents REALLY suck.

With this journal.

The rules:
Choose a singer/band/group
Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group/musical.
Tag 6 more people (let them know they've been tagged)


My choice: Avenue Q (Their last performance is on the 13th! )


1. Male or female?
I can't think of a song for this.

2. Describe yourself
Schadenfreude

3. What do people feel when they're around you?
For Now

4. How would you describe your previous relationship?
It Sucks To Be Me

5. Describe your current relationship.
There's A Fine Fine Line (OMGF! I LOVE THIS SONG. )

6. Where would you want to be now?
I Wish I Could Go Back To College (Although I've never been to college yet. I couldn't think of anything else! )

7. How do you feel about love?
The More You Ruv Someone

8. What's your life like?
There is Life Outside Your Apartment

9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
Fantasies Come True (This song is REALLY amazing as well! )

10. Say something wise.
Everyone's A Little Bit Racist

I'm also not tagging anyone.

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He's attracted to Cloud Strife.

Lame journal is lame.

mmmmmmm. this is a quick journal entry gaiz even though i should really reply to all your messages. D:

School lulz

1.)commercial and design-mmmmmmm i guess i like this class. the only friend i really have in this class would be amanda, but it's better than having no friends.

2.)engrish-this class is offically uncool since i have tom forrest in this class.

3.)Gym-i have a few friends is this class, but i don't really talk to them anyways.

4.)band- this class is ok. although brittany needs to be in symphonic band with me katie and dustin.

5.)chemistry- i think i may accidently die in this class due to chemicals. i'm very clumsy and i might get chemicals in my eyes or something.

6.)lunch- why is it that most of my friends have lunch 5th?! I have lunch with ~lightningwolves and this dude named connor!! And I also get to see my friend claire and meghan! but they're all going away next semester. *^* although i get to have lunch with ~CiaoMartino next semester!!!

7.)french 2-okies gaiz. i really suck at french but guess what? i'm actually going to study hard in this year and get an A!!!!! i like this class very much. madame haskins ish awesome!

8.)algebra 2-this class is almost all juniors with the exception of me ~kiwi01 and casey!

and btw, i can't find ~CiaoMartino, ~soyrwoo, and ~Asukari at all!!! where are you gaiz?? D:

and wowow i only have 3 years to live with my parents and I can legally move out!!! srsly. you don't know how much i hate these people. apparently i forgot my keys and my dad was fucking screaming at me more than usual. although HE WAS HOME AND IS ALWAYS HOME. and ugh he calls me stupid and tells me to think about my actions even though HE CAN'T THINK ABOUT HIS OWN FUCKING ACTIONS AND DOESN'T REALIZE HOW MUCH YELLING AND WORDS CAN HURT PEOPLE.

manz guys. srry about the bawl journal. D:

but only 3 more years until i finally get out of this living hell.

also, i started thinking about college. i either want to go to

1.)Northern Illinois University
2.)University of Illinois
3.)Roosevelt University

which college do you guys want to go to?

Stolen from ~Asukari

10 Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People:

10. Dude! I miss you so much! I feel sad that you NEVER talk to me anymore! Like REALLY sad. I hate losing friends so much! I don't want to lose you as a friend because of some guy because unlike him i actually care about you!

9. Omfg i miss you so much! I need to come on deviantart more to spread my yaoiness and lulz! And damn are you amazing in history! You should just teach at Shs or Chs and see fat kids get stuck in the chairs!!one!1

8. I was absolutly sure of my feelings for you, but now I'm starting to reconsider my feelings. </3

7. You're amazing. You are pretty much the only Thai kid i really know irl. I feel VERY VERY upset that you and i almost never hang out anymore. You were my best friend and will always be my best friend. You'll forever be the little brother i never had. (Lol. This reminds me of Green/Blue's older sister relationship with Silver from the Pokemon Special manga. Since they're not actually related but still have act like brother and sister. And the girl is 3 years older than the boy just like us. )

6. Thank you so much for being an AMAZING friend.

5. I'm VERY sorry about what happened to your father. I will pray that everything else goes well. May God send your father to heaven. And thank you very much for being our school's Uprising leader. God Bless You.

4. STOP DATING 2 GIRLS AT THE SAME TIME YOU DUMB FAG. YOU'RE NOTHING BUT A LYING, RUDE, DIRTY CHEATER. (Oh god, long story gaiz. D8)

3. Let me live my life the way i want to ok?!

2. ILU!!!! Even though you rape and harass me every single day especially at band camp, you're AMAZING. 8D

1. Gah! You're SUPER AMAZING! I love love LOVE chatting with on facebook talking about how cool Pokemon is! You're also the only guy I know IRL that reads the Pokemon Special Manga and hates Brian H. as much as I do! FFFFFFFFF.

Nine things about myself:

9. I love love LOVE andacondas!
8. Even though I usually wear glasses, i wear contacts now.
7. My room is SUPER girly. It's actually ALL pink with LOTS of Hello Kitty.
6. I'm playing Pokemon Crystal right now even though I haven't played it for yeeeaars.
5. I'm REALLY perverted. Yaaaaaaaaoi! And yes, I'm SEEMINGLY innocent.
4. I hate hate HATE taking pictures. That's why there's like no piccys in meh Facebook pictures.
3. I'm super obssed with the RomeoxJuliet anime as well as Vocaloid, Higurashi, and Rozen Maiden.
2. I had 2 Death Notes but lost them all so I had to buy a 3rd Death Note. D8
1. I need sleep. D8

Eight ways to win my heart: (random order)

8. Be yourself.
7. Kind, Nice.
6. Be honest with me.
5. Don’t flirt with other girls.
4. Trustworthy.
3. Accepting other people into your life.
2. Funny.
1. Be totally amazing.

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:

7. I need to finish my summer reading! D8
6. I'm in the front row for marching band even though I should be in the back with the other flutes.
5. I bubble tea.
4. I need to practice flute, piano, and art more.
3. YAAAAAAAAAAAOIII.
2. Band Camp.
1. More yaoi.

Six things I do before I fall asleep:

6. Brush teeth and wash meh face.
5. Go on the internets.
4. Practice flute or piano.
3. Read bible.
2. Pray.
1. Listen to awesome music.

Five people who mean a lot to me: (random order)

5. Tyler
4. Marty
3. Brittany (Both Brittanys plz. )
2. Lois
1. Noah

Four things you're wearing right now:

4. Shirt
3. Shorts
2. Sooooocks
1. Contacts 8D

Three songs that you listen to often:

3. Servant of Evil-Vocaloid, Rin, Len
2. Your Guardian Angel- Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
1. Leave Out All the Rest-Linkin Park

Two things you want to do before you die:

2. Travel the World.
1. Be as happy as possible.

One confession:

1. I'm really unsure about this choice.....................